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Now doing animations!
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Though it's been a long time since I released any artwork, I've done quite a bit of 3D modelling and animation over the last few years. I'm very close now to having something to release, as in the brief moments here and there in that time, I usually do a bit, then start over.
I've created a patreon page on which to release them, so y'know, if anyone wants to support me in any way that would be great.
There's just a little stuff on there at the moment showing works in progress, to give a bit of a flavour of what this is going to be like.
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Hi.
I'm aware that a a number of people have sent me messages or left comments asking when my next story is going to be, when they are going to see a regular character again, or when there is going to be a continuation to a half-finished series. I apologise that I haven't responded to any of them, I'm flattered by the interest and this isn't directed at any one person as many people have contacted me. I don't wish to ignore any single person's queries but I've been struggling with things a lot this summer, life is becoming tough and unfortunately other than the occasional comment I've left on a very small number of inflation works I've seen, the very idea of engaging with the inflation community just feels totally overwhelming. It has taken me a long time even to build up the strength and presence of mind to write this note.
I just wanted everyone to know that. I feel really bad for the amount of people that have felt ignored by me over the previous few months, and if I'm honest, I never expected to draw this much interest from people that I would have to fear letting people down. I'm sorry if I have done.
I know I make have spoken on occasion of 'works in progress' but I have to admit now that no progress has been made, or will be made on any further works, possibly for quite a while.
I never actually did requests so if and when I do feel ready to resume work it will be entirely at my own pace. I know this will just cause people to contact me and say they don't mind if I work in my own time, but I'm sorry, I won't be able to handle the weight of expectation even if you try your best to remove it from my shoulders. Also, it really only works if it's something I want to to, I just can't motivate myself at all to realise other people's fantasies.
For a couple of months I felt I could use inflation art as a therapeutic tool; which is why there was some stuff from me early on in the summer after a very long hiatus. I had a couple of things that motivated me for a while, but sadly all motivation is now gone. I had a muse and I no longer do and am sadly missing her. It isn't just that loss, but it came at a very delicate time for me. I feel very isolated and have had a number of anxiety attacks over the last few months. I have my own health to think of and need to address those concerns before I even think about getting back to creating stories and drawings.
Having a muse really did transform my attitude towards inflation, someone who I just felt my desires were totally in tune with, not just a fantasy buddy but a real person with real feelings who I thought I had a connection with. I don't know what I did wrong, but she is no longer around. As I said before, losing her isn't in itself the cause of all this, but it did come at a difficult time when I was reaching out for human connections and support. For a while back then it did seem like I was going to reawaken from my slumber, this coincided with withdrawal of medication which, while emotionally difficult at first, released me from its vice-like grip to life again. Now though I no longer have any reason to carry on and must push on alone until I get better.
Thank you for your understanding, I'm OK... physically I'm in good health, mentally I'm lucid and rational and emotionally I'm tender and intense but improving. It will be a long road and I appreciate any understanding I can get.
Thank you all.
Carnatic.
I'm aware that a a number of people have sent me messages or left comments asking when my next story is going to be, when they are going to see a regular character again, or when there is going to be a continuation to a half-finished series. I apologise that I haven't responded to any of them, I'm flattered by the interest and this isn't directed at any one person as many people have contacted me. I don't wish to ignore any single person's queries but I've been struggling with things a lot this summer, life is becoming tough and unfortunately other than the occasional comment I've left on a very small number of inflation works I've seen, the very idea of engaging with the inflation community just feels totally overwhelming. It has taken me a long time even to build up the strength and presence of mind to write this note.
I just wanted everyone to know that. I feel really bad for the amount of people that have felt ignored by me over the previous few months, and if I'm honest, I never expected to draw this much interest from people that I would have to fear letting people down. I'm sorry if I have done.
I know I make have spoken on occasion of 'works in progress' but I have to admit now that no progress has been made, or will be made on any further works, possibly for quite a while.
I never actually did requests so if and when I do feel ready to resume work it will be entirely at my own pace. I know this will just cause people to contact me and say they don't mind if I work in my own time, but I'm sorry, I won't be able to handle the weight of expectation even if you try your best to remove it from my shoulders. Also, it really only works if it's something I want to to, I just can't motivate myself at all to realise other people's fantasies.
For a couple of months I felt I could use inflation art as a therapeutic tool; which is why there was some stuff from me early on in the summer after a very long hiatus. I had a couple of things that motivated me for a while, but sadly all motivation is now gone. I had a muse and I no longer do and am sadly missing her. It isn't just that loss, but it came at a very delicate time for me. I feel very isolated and have had a number of anxiety attacks over the last few months. I have my own health to think of and need to address those concerns before I even think about getting back to creating stories and drawings.
Having a muse really did transform my attitude towards inflation, someone who I just felt my desires were totally in tune with, not just a fantasy buddy but a real person with real feelings who I thought I had a connection with. I don't know what I did wrong, but she is no longer around. As I said before, losing her isn't in itself the cause of all this, but it did come at a difficult time when I was reaching out for human connections and support. For a while back then it did seem like I was going to reawaken from my slumber, this coincided with withdrawal of medication which, while emotionally difficult at first, released me from its vice-like grip to life again. Now though I no longer have any reason to carry on and must push on alone until I get better.
Thank you for your understanding, I'm OK... physically I'm in good health, mentally I'm lucid and rational and emotionally I'm tender and intense but improving. It will be a long road and I appreciate any understanding I can get.
Thank you all.
Carnatic.
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I'm an inflation fetishist.
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I'm an inflation fetishist. I'm not proud of it, I'm not ashamed of it either, it is what it is. But I thought I should clear a few things up.
1. I don't deny that it is fetish.
2. I don't claim my work is art, it's wank material, though I don't see why some of the better artists who cover the fetish less gratuitously are so different from other erotic artists.
3. I use dA because there are other fetishists on here and it's easy to use, not because I want to force my fetish onto you.
4. I'd rather there were somewhere else I could post my stuff too.
5. I don't have every other fetish going, I'm not a paedophile, I'm not into snuff, I'm not even a furry.
6. I really don't care for anime.
7. I've had this fetish since before I knew there was anyone else who did, and before dA existed, it's not a bandwagon.
8. It's not about objectification, it's not about empowerment either, I respect women, but I just have this fetish.
9. I have normal sexual relationships with normal women.
10. My fantasies are strictly that, fantasies. I wouldn't try and force them on real people, I don't even like so called 'real life' inflation.
1. I don't deny that it is fetish.
2. I don't claim my work is art, it's wank material, though I don't see why some of the better artists who cover the fetish less gratuitously are so different from other erotic artists.
3. I use dA because there are other fetishists on here and it's easy to use, not because I want to force my fetish onto you.
4. I'd rather there were somewhere else I could post my stuff too.
5. I don't have every other fetish going, I'm not a paedophile, I'm not into snuff, I'm not even a furry.
6. I really don't care for anime.
7. I've had this fetish since before I knew there was anyone else who did, and before dA existed, it's not a bandwagon.
8. It's not about objectification, it's not about empowerment either, I respect women, but I just have this fetish.
9. I have normal sexual relationships with normal women.
10. My fantasies are strictly that, fantasies. I wouldn't try and force them on real people, I don't even like so called 'real life' inflation.
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